Throwback (High School)

Sekolah Menengah Atas.

Took me a while to say about my senior life in one word . Then it happened:

Sweetest.

Yes, the sweetest. Some said high school should be the most colourful one (which had already been dedicated to my junior life), but for me, high school was the sweetest that ever hapenned.

Even more than half of SMAN 1 Bekasi's students were graduated from SMPN 1 Bekasi, most of my closest friends didn't pass the entrance exam. In the beginning, I pushed myself not to be the old-girl cannot easily move-me, but it didn't work hahaha. Hmm a week. Time that I needed till I realized I gotta move on with my life. But who knows, we "split-up" for better future. Every one of us moved on with our life; met new friends, new experiences, and new perspectives. When we met again, we saw the world in many different ways but we learned from each other, a lot. I cannot imagine if God brought us together again in high school, we would make the same "geng" then stuck with each other.

I started my high school with changing my haircut. I got the problem of my self-esteem since I was a child because of my-super kribo-hair. I did always tie them hard and not willing to loose them. 

"I'm gonna show the world my hair!" 

I said that to myself when I graduated from secondary school, hahaha. And weirdly, I got that "the most beautiful girl in class" title for two years in a row with that haircut -.- To be honest, that was the haircut that I love the most for my 21-years-life.

I don't have any sub-themes so that this writting can be split in many parts like the previous posts, because I only had one "life" back then in high school: study harder then get into college. Se-sederhana dan se-jangka pendek itu. I didn't hang out much. Didn't quite often play basketball again, just playing around sometimes. And started to forget how to play guitar. I was that kind of Tang-Go student who missed some of  high school's events. 

First day(s) of school, still being the-same-old-girl cannot easily move-me, I spent my breaktime(s) sitting inside the classroom, sometimes playing with my phone alone, or sometimes having a little chit-chat with my classmates. Till I met some seniors, from batch 2010, that happened to be my medication. I met them from many different ways: ada yang dari media sosial, ketemu di depan loker, dikenalin, atau minta kenalan sekedar karna mau modusin Nadhira -,,- (Nadhira is a friend of mine, #SmansasiHITS banget, di jamannya). They were far from those typical seniors that we usually saw on FTV,  they were very kind and open. They sometimes invited me to sit with them at canteen on breaktimes. From them, I got much enlightments about my school or some tips, mulai dari typical guru, tempat bimbel yang asik, tempat nongkrong, karakter anak-anaknya, gosip-gosip sekolah, sampai cerita tentang perjuangan di tingkat akhir menghadapi Ujian Nasional dan Seleksi Masuk Perguruan Tinggi. In second semester, when Tiara finally moved to Smansa, my life came back to normal and I started to get to know more of my yearmates.

Talking about the sweetness, all the elements in my high school were deadly sweet. The teachers, the classes, the friends, etc.  Starting from my teachers' office that apparently became the most creepy place because once I came in, all the teacher's eyes were (suddenly) on me, then they started to yell "Astagfirullah Uta, coba diiket rambutnya" "Duh kamu, pake bando ya besok." "Utari besok besok pake kerudung aja, cantik deh." Or moment when the administration staffs could only breathe a sigh and giving me helplessly that "kartu ujian sementara" setiap hari pada minggu ujian, karena saya yang selalu menunggak SPP. Even moment when you can ask anything because you are part of school's science olympiad squad. Hahaha damn I missed that moment.

My yearmates were not less sweet. They were the reason why I woke up every morning and got my ass to school. I knew all of their names, even some of them didn't know me, but I knew the names, because I did pay attention that much to them (baca: kepo) dan started to remember all those 333 names of my yearmates. I don't know why I did, it was just my resolution back then after my (junior school) graduation. X.2, XI IPA 5, XII IPA 7, Basket Smansasi, KISMA, Geol, semuanya menorehkan suka duka yang membuat hari-hari saya selalu manis di sekolah. And last but not least: dhrs and kmbg, it would take a week to tell about them, hahaha.

 

(Kisma Smansasi, Angk. 2012)

 

(Geol Smansasi, Angk. 2012)

 

 (Basket Smansasi, Angk. 2012)

A moment to remember was when my friends always made my birthday(S) incredibly perfect and sweet. Mulai dari merasakan kotornya kolam, kue tart pertama (I never had my own tart cake on my previous birthdays hahaha), kado tas dan dompet yang masing-masing sampai dua buah (karena tas dan dompet saya yang katanya sudah terlalu usang), jam tangan (yang sebelumnya selalu minjem setiap ujian), sampai video ucapan selamat dari Pevita dan Ariel, those were really memorable, the sweetness that always successfully made me cry a river.

Pevita Pearce, 17th birthday

Ariel, 18th birthday (loncat ke menit 13, kalo bosen)

P.S. Masih belum tahu hukumnya republish dokumentasi orang yang tadinya belum pake kerudung, dan sekarang udah. Hahahaha.